Nice blog, well written and thoughtfully presented. I for one totally ‘get’ coping mechanisms including Gallows Humour, but not everybody does. What I will say though is in my experience it is not a good thing to bottle these emotions up for a long time, sometimes years. Everybody has to find their own way to release these emotions, albeit under control, otherwise that have a nasty habit of turning inwards and becoming destructive. So don’t think you’re a horrible cow, don’t let anybody else think it. I’m sure that you’re 100% professional when you deal with ‘your’ families, and that’s how it should be, how you deal with your emotions is your business.